So many things I want to do in life.... but who has got the time for them??  Kinda sucks living in a society where work is first and life is second.....

Haven't posted on here in forever.  But I thought I would share this with you:

So these past few days I have been working my butt of with this whole Golden Rainbow thing.  For those of you who don't know, once a year Nevada puts on this huge production called Ribbon of Life.  Its basically a montage of musical performances and different groups in Las Vegas put together.   All the Money Raised from it goes to help people and families living with aids or HIV.  Its a really awesome event.

Well, this year, I was asked to help out.  The gym that I coach at, Nevada Allstars, was asked to do a cheerleading number to Pink's "God is a DJ."  This is the best part.... PINK IS GOING TO SING WITH US!!!  Well, I hope anyways. Her manager told us a couple of days ago that everything was good to go.  So, we finish choreographing the routine and get everything to go and on our first rehearsal..... they drop one of our girls on her head.  Bally's flipped out and wanted to pull the number because they thought we were dangerous and didn't think we could hit it.  So we told them to give us one more chance and they agreed.  So we worked our asses off on the routine and we go back for dress rehearsal and they hit everything!  I was so excited for them!  The crowd loved it, the director loved it and we had a few magazines want to interview us.  I was stoked.  All thats left is the accual performance and hopefully Pink will show up to do it with us!  Cross your Fingers!

Im also doing another number called "A Tribute to Shwartz?   I hope I spelled his name right.  Anyways it a melodie of different songs that he wrote.  The only one I reconzie though is "Colors of the Wing" from Pocahantas.  I quess he wrote "Send in the Clowns" too..... How gay is that?  Ha ha ha ha?   Im scared tho, Im afraid I am going to trip and fall on my face.  The costumes we have to wear are rediculous too.   I look like a gold jesters LOL.  But Im having fun doing it.  I get to meet alot of cool people too.  Alot of performers from the strip. 

If you guyz are interested in comming.  The shows are this Sat and Sun at 12:30.  Its gonna be held in the Jubilee Theater at Bally's casino.  Check out the website:

www.goldenrainbow.org

There you can get information on tickets and the organization itself. 

But wish me luck and "break a leg!"  Im excited to do it this weekend!  PLEASE PINK SHOW UP!!!! LOL

I normally don't like fowards but I thought this was hillarious and I thought to myself, "I would probley do the same thing in a similar situation.  Enjoy:

This could happen to you!
          

I was barely sitting down when I heard a voice from the other stall saying:

Hi, how are you?"

I'm not the type to start a conversation in the restroom but I don't know
what got into me, so I answered, somewhat embarrassed,
"Doin' just fine!"

And the other person says:
"So what are you up to?"

What kind of question is that? At that point, I'm thinking this is too
bizarre so I say:
"Uhhh, I'm like you, just traveling!"

At this point I am just trying to get out as fast as I can when I hear
another question.
"Can I come over?"

Ok, this question is just too weird for me but I figured I could just be
polite and end the conversation. I tell them ,
"No........I'm a little busy right now!!!"

 Then I hear the person say nervously...

"Listen, I'll have to call you back. There's an idiot in the other stall
who keeps answering all my questions!!!"

     Well, the last thing that I ever wanted comming out of this was someone who hated me.  I guess, when does anyone want anyone to hate them?  But these past few months have been, I guess really hard to swallow.  Its never really easy learning who you are and what you have become.  I have recently got a glimpse of who I am what have I become. To tell you the truth, it was like looking in the mirror and not reconizing the other person.  I quess to say it in real solid terms, I have been a selfish brat who hid all of his emotions, afraid of anyone seeing through him and seeing the weakness he hid.   Underneath it all he was helpless and screaming for someone just to understand him because he couldn't understand himself.  I want to become a better person, I want to be that person that I always imagined I would be.   I quess the first place to start would be trying to understand myself and changing from there.  I need to stay out of relationships for a while and spend time focus on my friends and myself.  Sometimes your friend can be a good relfection of who you are and what you want to become.  Ive learned how to be independant, now I need to learn the sacrifice and benifits of letting other people into my life.  I quess I need to do one of those self-reflecting things.  The thing (my real journal) that has gotten me in to trouble is going to be my best friend now.  I need to write in it more because I have found when you write your thought and go back and read them, sometimes its like standing outside yourself and looking in.  Hellan Kellar once said, "Life is either great adventure or it is nothing."  My new adventure starts right here........